spain   film within a film   1950s   singing   flashback   bare chested male   male nudity   breaking the fourth wall   actor   heroin   depression   nudity   stage   reconciliation   cocaine   film director   gay   male frontal nudity   male underwear   addiction   headache   movie poster   fireworks   three word title   monologue   drawing   animated sequence   scar   cinema   gay kiss   sexual awakening   soap   homosexuality   nostalgia   art gallery   children's choir   working class   briefs   semi autobiographical   childhood memory   hypochondriac   pubic hair   poverty   washing clothes   surgeon   2010s   playing piano   gay lead character   madrid spain   choir   tequila   heroin addict   absent father   white briefs   ex boyfriend   reference to marilyn monroe   reference to anton chekhov   bricklayer   lesson   backache   introspection   human anatomy   living in a cave   man undressing   hospital visit   film festival   existential crisis   philosophical conversation   metaphoric title   reference to william shakespeare   doctor   theater   hospital   written by director   mother son relationship   voice over narration   male pubic hair   male full frontal nudity   telephone call   kiss   swimming pool   underwater scene   undressing   younger version of character   penis   priest   drugs   death of mother   male protagonist   adult illiteracy   artistic creation   auto fiction   boy choir   chronic pain   cinematheque   creative crisis   dysphagia   film shooting   forestier's disease   getting old   illiterate   male beauty   paterna spain   q & a   reference to buenos aires argentina   reference to cecil beaton   reference to chavela vargas   reference to elizabeth taylor   reference to garcia lorca   reference to havana cuba   reference to iceland   reference to ivory coast   reference to jean cocteau   reference to mexico city   reference to natalie wood   reference to robert taylor   seminary   surgical scar   wash tub   washing clothes in river